Dream


Climb up ladder to level, see rusty little monkey move. Fear. Realise I am inside enclosure. Flee, ahead of King Kong-size ape. (A cow's gait in monkey.)

On street see Jess, thus can locate Camilla. She is a satellite.

Elaine's funeral. Big. Walk path. Sidestep Hugh, using tree. In house.

With woman in room. Notice outside window, my paintings - not my good ones - on walls of street (like Pisan student graffiti). In the room my paintings of gates - gates -gates. I want to show Cam, can't find her.

Upstairs, in bar, a group of men are released from a cell. I need toilet. A man slips in, checks bars won't close on him, to use that toilet. A bit risky for me.

Walk up path, a little like Stourhead. Grand. No Cam. In room again with a gay guy. He touches my thigh etc I protest. He makes a pass. I protest. Try to find Cam. As I return, I think 'I might as well try.' He says 'No, wait' and we kiss tenderly. Slowly (met Dan today). I look out window, the woman is looking at me, raised eyebrows, from opposite lit window.